We headed north this morning for another visit at Doernbecher's CF clinic. Your sister came with us and sat in the front (big special treat) with Dad while I sat next to you in the back. This trip was not so daunting, but there is a heaviness within me from some external circumstances that clouded everything about today. Trying to separate all the fragments within my head left me feeling physically sick. Sweet Kate, I only write any of what I write to show you my weaknesses, my hurts, my extreme joy that you are my daughter and my hope in my Savior who is my treasure.
We listened to music much of the trip there, and Natalie Grant's Held came on P*andora at one point. I feel that the Lord continues to speak to me so much about his very real presence with us. His faithfulness. We are being held in this day and through it. A few of the lyrics...
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held
If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our Savior...
There were so many things that were better this time around in Portland. One, we knew a few restaurants close by so we chose one near OHSU instead of driving downtown. Two, we allowed extra time and arrived at OHSU with plenty of time to spare. Three, we located the Doernbecher parking lot instead of trekking across the sky bridge and walking a. long. way. Four, and this is the great news, we saw that your weight continues to climb quickly! Never have I been so excited about numbers climbing on a scale than watching you grow at an above average pace now! I had taken you in last Wednesday to our local pediatrician's office and you weighed 7 pounds 14 ounces. Today you weighed 8 pounds 6.6 ounces just five days later. You were at the 3rd percentile for growth last Wednesday and today you are at the 10th percentile! Yippee!! Kate, we prayed for your growth. People asked how they could pray and we asked that they pray for quick, steady growth. Thank you for answering our prayers, Lord!! Your overall average weight gain since your first visit at OHSU is 44 grams a day. The average for babies your age is 30 grams a day. Above average, my sweet girl! The doctor was pleased, and the dietitian told us that already your weight to length ratio is above the range needed to keep you in the "safe" zone for long term good prognosis. The better you grow, the more likely you are to do well long term.